I need someone who understands, I just can't cope at the minute.

I have someone in my life who is constantly trying to one up me, which is fine, go for it. I don't care about being or having the best as long as I'm happy and those I love are happy, but I'm not happy. I'm miserable. 7 years of ttc. 2 years of trying to find a new house we can afford. A friend who I gave up my life to care for when she needed me, who now that I need her is nowhere to be seen. A family member dying in front of my eyes. Counceling that has brought up some horrible childhood memories that I'm now so fucking angry and hurt over. A family member who is pregnant and doing everything they can to make it hurt me even though all I have done is show them I am happy for them.

I just need a break. I can't cope.