It’s the first day of my cycle and I’ve actually been in a good mood. My fiancé however got upset when I told him how my grandmother nearly 80 years was concerned about how he would provide for me now that we are an item. She also said she apologized if she over stepped any boundaries about asking about the wedding, talking expenses etc. he wasn’t there for that because he was at McDonald’s. This isn’t the easiest part of our lives right now. I have a car, he does not. I earn $21 an hour soon to be promoted to $23 using my master’s degree. He also has a master’s degree, while mine is from a state school his is from Yale. However he majored in something of interest rather than something of profit and has no interest in working in the field he studied plus it would be really hard to get that kind of job anyway. I drive him to the popular fast food chain where he now works. He lives in my house which my mother passed down to me after her passing a few short years ago. He lives with me because his dad kicked him out for not paying rent or contributing to bills or food. He instead has given all his minimum wage checks to me to help pay bills and get the AC fixed. He lives with me b4 in between going to school but I eventually kicked him out too. It was civil and not for monetary reasons. But when he lived with me he didn’t have to pay any bills. I worked. He would write his book in the cafe all day. I didn’t complain.

Anyway he is upset with my grandmother or whatever because she expressed concerns with him providing for me. She expected him to serve in the military reserve or use his masters degree but instead he works on the grill in a fast food chain getting ALMOST $8.00 an hour. So yes, she expressed concern with if I’ll be taken care or or not. She’s old fashioned of course. Anyway he took it to heart and twice he has vented. Once as I was dropping him off at work and then second on his lunch break. He’s not speaking productively just out of anger and frustration. I don’t need that in my life right now. How do you call someone on your lunch break to say “sorry we left on a bad note, are you okay?” And then PROCEED to be annoying and continue this negative talk. He tried to put my grandmother and his dad in the category and he kinda hates his dad. I’m defensive of my grandmother because we are close and my mom does and my aunt just died this summer and my great grandmother just died in October and we buried her on my birthday. My family is very small and I love them all! His family and a very big and his dislikes most of them and talks poorly of them. I don’t think he understands what it’s like to come from a loving family that cares about you. Because his parents never check on him even when he was a kid they just let him do whatever and then yell at him and he saw it as love because it’s what he grew up with. My main point is he’s annoying me and I’m always level headed in this relationship but right now I don’t have the capacity to withstand how annoying and negative he is being.

He has tried to explain his point but I don’t get why he’s so upset and I want to understand but I feel like this is a crying over spilled milk situation. He won’t even go by her house any more he says. The angry side of me says fine never visit her ever!