I’m having a miscarriage, I’m so sad , my pregnancy was a surprise we stopped trying months ago , my husband doesn’t want another baby now until we move into our new home this summer which makes since , I’m trying to use the time inbetween to make better life choices and to be healthier to grow as a mother to my current son , and person . At least that’s my goal . I’m so sad at the moment though , the bleeding and the contractions are just a reminder of what’s actually happening. I wish I never found out I was pregnant or going to be , I found out so early . I’m just trying to focus on the future and I can’t wait to try for our rainbow baby next fall .