I know we shouldn't ask God why

I just don't understand why I have to be a single parent I wish I had a baby with a man not a boy, My daughter is not his priority at all it really makes me sad, I just wanna forget about him a move on with my life all I ask was to be in her life that’s it smh. I just wanted my daughter to have a dad like I dad I feel like she's the only child in the family with no father 😔. I really tried I really did smh.