Lost momma

courtney

I have a 16 month old baby girl and I'm currently 24 weeks pregnant with my baby boy. My now husband and I have been on and off for the last 5 1/2 years. He has cheated a lot. And got caught often talking inappropriately to other girls. He left me when my daughter was born because I was raped and conceived her. Rumors started that I had cheated and he believed random people over me. Well I broke things off "for good" before I got pregnant with baby #2. He called me crying telling me he missed me and wanted to be my girls dad. I fell for it. He then cheated 2 more times. And I blocked him on everything. My phone notified me a blocked caller kept calling so I finally called him back. He had some of our things and wanted to see my daughter. Odd request but I came. He suckered me back in. A few weeks later I find out I'm pregnant. He finally told me he wanted to marry me and I was so blinded by finally having his baby and him saying he wanted to marry me I just did it. Well things have been rough. And last night I looked at his open apps and the google play store was open. And snapchat was brought up like he searched it. We have agreed he wouldnt have one due to the cheating and now he is trying to convince me he hasn't used it since we were broken up. Has no idea why it was up on his phone.. well my gut tells me hes lying and has been downloading and deleting it. I know it's time to leave. But I literally have no where to go. I have no money. No job. No help. Hes said things about not being my daughters dad anymore if we split up. And shes totally in love with him😭💔 idk how to do any of this. And being pregnant has made this so much harder...