Ladies! I’m freaking out! So Thursday is my 23rd birthday. I’ve been with my husband since I was 16. He is my first everything. First kiss, first date, first boyfriend, first and only person I’ve ever done anything with. He got to date around for a while and do things since he’s older than me.

He has no sex drive and is very very boring in bed. He refuses to do anything about his sex drive no matter how much I try to help. He won’t see a doctor or anything. So we agreed that I could watch porn, dirty talk with other guys, and trade pictures. Well we also agreed that we could have 1 free pass to sleep with any stranger we wanted to 1 time and it CANNOT be a friend or someone we know.

Well, I’ve found a guy that is exactly what I want in the bedroom that is going to come down tomorrow and we are going to do this thing. I am so freaking nervous and excited!! Just in time for my birthday too!

You don’t have to agree with any of this. You can think it’s gross, wrong, and that our relationship sucks. But our relationship is great, we love and trust each other very much. There are plenty of open relationships that do just fine and are happy and healthy. I just needed to vent my emotions on this!