hey everyone. LONG STORY. i have been dealing with a very upsetting problem that happened over a year ago. i was ‘with’ a guy (my now boyfriend) for around a year just having sex, and i really liked him a lot. he never told anyone about me and our ‘relationship’ was not really dating just enjoying eachothers company and ,well, sex. i never blocked him from doing anything he wanted, and one time he went to a city 2 hours away from my town with his male friend. his friend was meeting this really beautiful girl and these two eventually ended up dating, but to no avail. they broke up. my guy told me about this and tbh i didn’t really care that much. until one day.. he told me he was talking to someone else and he wanted to leave whatever we had. at the time i was like oh okay.. trying not to show my feelings that i had for him because he didn’t know i really liked him a lot. and then he told me it was the girl that his friend dated. i thought wow he’s really that low to go to his friends ex...

anyway while he was fucking his girl in the city i was getting drunk and crying every night over this perfect guy. he ruined me. during their ‘relationship’ my guy changed his bitmoji and everything to the love thing and just did little things that showed he actually loved this girl.. and he couldn’t love me apparently. this really hurt at the time. eventually, they broke up, and i messaged my guy if he was ok and he instantly told me he was driving to mine to come see me. he told me he missed me and said he thought about me while he was with her. after awhile we have been dating for over a year and i can’t get this girl out of my head.. it’s like she has taken over my brain and i can’t stop thinking about her and how i’m not good enough for my own boyfriend because he previously left me for someone else. even when we are having sex sometimes i think about how he had sex with her when i still loved me and i just burst into tears just thinking about it and we have to stop. i can’t stop stalking her instagram and i just can’t believe i’m better for my boyfriend then she is. this is ruining my life. i still cry every night because i don’t feel good enough even though my boyfriend continuously supports me and reassures that he loves me and will do forever. in all honesty he still is the perfect guy for me and i havnt loved anyone as much as him, i trust him so much now but it’s just the fact that he left me for another girl i just can’t get over... sometimes i feel like dying because he had something special with someone that wasn’t me. she is literally so beautiful and i know i’m not as good as her. this has been hurting our relationship in my eyes because i’m so strung on his ex and keep reminding him of her because IM thinking of her not him... if anyone could please help me. i am struggling. i need advice. thank you :/