I’m due for surgery on Tuesday of next week

I’m a big mix of emotions, I’m excited, I’m scared, I’m worried I won’t be good at being a mother to my little boy, I’m scared to be a failure , I feel like this is normal feelings being a new mom , I lock myself in the bathroom and cry sometimes, I wish I wasn’t feeling scared and nervous I just wish I was super confident and not have fears . I don’t show this fear to my husband , I don’t want him to be worried , Has anyone felt this also?

It’s always been me and my husband for 12 years I’m 35 and having a new baby is a new adjustment offcourse but I know it will be an amazing adjustment and just want to be a good mom and for my son to be healthy and be healthy and strong to be there for him always.