We are having lots of get togethers and over night stays with both mine and husband's family. Not one of them is without babies or children .

And i am struggling with infertility for 4+years, ttc#1,pcos since i was 15 and now i am 30.

It just breaks my heart everytime i see others with their children.

I uninstalled my Instagram and FB for the same reason.

Glow is the only community or social media that i literally use now.

I CANNOT get out of these get togethers, believe me ,i have tried my best to avoid these.

Since its family, my husband says its not a big deal, he is like all the children are ours... and is more than happy to attend these.

All the children are NOT ours no matter how he thinks, i can't agree.

We can't take them home...

Its just been a painfull struggle hearing everyone talking about their kids.

Ps. I tried Not going to these get togethers by saying i am not well or some other excuses and they all literally came to see mee.

So i can't get out of these and my husband is not at all being supportive.

I honestly try not to get attached to these babies and children since i literally cant take them home.

I know i am being selfish but today also going to paste a smile on my face and meet with all of them.

Yesterday had a get together with hubbys cousin nd family of 3 children. And unexpectedly we had to meet or i was forced to go with them to their other relative's house with 2 babies whom i am not very close with. I was sitting there alone out of place for so many hours, even though they tried to include me ,but it was just awkward.

Hubby is not supportive of me at all .

He says its rude to avoid meeting others and tells me to ignore all the negative thoughts.

But i can't, i am not so strong as him.