Bashed for wanting to breastfeed.

I have tried to let it go but I just don’t understand.

Anytime I go to my grandmothers I try to prepare myself for the hateful comments. At thanksgiving yesterday not only did she announce loudly to the whole family how “fat I am” and that they need to check for multiple babies and that I won’t be able to walk by the time my due date rolls around. We were outside and she continued telling me how I had just got to “looking good with my weight, and now this” so I tried to laugh and make a comment “well I lost a lot with the other two and this time I’m breast feeding so maybe I’ll look right” she made the most god awful face and said “oh that’s so NASTY!!!” Then kept asking why I would want to do that. Told me I need to learn to get on WIC and I could get free formula 🙃

First of all, I’m not choosing to breastfeed because of formula being expensive, I have had to be on wic before so I don’t judge but why on earth would you rather me get help than feed my baby naturally anyway!? I just don’t get it, and you’d think older people would prefer breast feeding but apparently not. I’m just really dreading the comments when I do have the baby and it’s time to feed. I obviously won’t be nursing at her house and will have a bottle handy if we visit but I’m just expecting the worst and I know I’ll be emotional as it is. I’m honestly terrified for her to come to the hospital Incase she just walks in while

I’m nursing and throws a huge fit. It’s sad I have to worry about that with “family”