I feel like I don't care about anything or anyone anymore. By this time of the year I'm so excited for the holidays. But I don't care. I just think about how many weeks I should be. My husband's sister in law and I got pregnant the exact same time in March. Now she is almost due and I've had 2 miscarriages this year. We've never been close but now I avoid her altogether. I don't go see his parents anymore because they are unsupportive. And even though I know it's just all in my head, I feel like they don't care that I miscarried because she'll be giving them another grandbaby anyway.

I think we will try again in the new year. Just sucks that whenever I do see another positive test I will feel fear now instead of joy.