Having a hard time- need to vent

I’m not sure if I’m the only one, but I’ve really been struggling with this pregnancy. Mentally, physically & emotionally.

We live abroad & the rest of our family is still back “home”. I had gender disappointment (kinda still do some days) 👎🏻

I can understand that the family are all excited about the baby & all but I get so annoyed when people ask me for a belly pic. I have gained so much weight (MIL even commented on how round my face is. She’s a sweetheart but wish I could’ve got up and walked away) - constantly talking about pregnancy & the baby etc & I’m just over it all. I’ve been so emotionally drained as I can’t do much due to the constant pain I’m in, no sleep & just over being pregnant now.. i feel guilty for feeling this way, almost to a point where I’m not even sure about having the baby.. 😔 my husband has been really amazing but he can only do so much.

People constantly asking when baby is coming- like ?? Wish I could tell ya Susan!!

Point is- pregnancy is hard, for me at least & my body is not coping. I feel extremely guilty as I wanted a baby so badly and wanted to enjoy every minute of being pregnant & prepping for bubs.