I am literally driving myself crazy symptom spotting and worrying.

I’ve reached 9 weeks. I’m due July 3rd. I’ve had 3 miscarriages this year.

I am panicking.

Every cramp keeps me up at night, every time my boobs aren’t as sore. Every time I’m in a store I buy another test.

How do I just chill?

How do I let go of the hurt and disappointment from losses and be happy with this one.

One minute I’m like “we’ve made it this far everything is going well. Baby had a heart beat blah blah blah”

Than the next “omg these cramps have been here for a while, guess I should prepare myself”

Checking for blood every time I go to the bathroom.... it’s driving me insane.

I’m so scared I’m gonna lose this baby, and I don’t know how to overcome the fear, let go of the past traumas and *hope* for a healthy pregnancy 🤰 😭😭

I can’t be the only one...