I was raped

I’m 13 I was raped when I was 10 so it’s has been 3 years since then and I do know people say that kids can’t be depressed well that what I had to deal with my whole life

So I never told anyone I’m just scared but I’m having flashbacks and I have really bad anxiety and panic attacks when the flashbacks happen at school it just makes me cry

My anxiety and panic attacks are so bad when I’m at home just cry on the floor and shake I didn’t tell my foster parents because I don’t think that they will believe me and it happens when I think when I get out of bed I have a panic attack

I just don’t know how to get help when I feel like no one can help fix my broken life

I want to talk to like a therapist but I just can’t open up and it sucks cause I can’t let myself get help I don’t think I can do to anymore