I lost my daughter at 24 weeks last month. I thought I’d feel a little better by now but I don’t. My husband was amazing over the last month but I can tell he’s pretty much healed and I’m not even close. I feel so alone and like this is my fault. I drank heavily in early pregnancy before I realized I was pregnant (I had what I thought was a period but it was just abnormally long implantation bleeding so I did not test until over 2 weeks after that 😞 I did not figure it out until I was a little over 5 weeks). One of my doctors mentioned a heart defect was a possible reason even though nothing unusual was detected on our anatomy scan and everything was fine. So that makes me feel like it was my fault, although the doctor assured me that early alcohol consumption doesn’t affect the embryo. It was just a month after the anatomy scan she seemed to measure small (just 2 weeks behind), and then 2 days later she was gone. What is worse sister in law is pregnant too but 2 weeks behind what I was and my best friend is 6-7 weeks ahead. I’m the only idiot that announced it on social media out of the 3 of us (I announced around 20 weeks when I thought i was in the clear and my mom really wanted me to) and I’m the one with the loss. I don’t know how to move forward. I keep blaming myself for the alcohol early on, for sleeping on my back sometimes instead of my side because my hips hurt, etc etc etc. If anyone wants to talk or message me feel free. I feel so alone, and like a failure.