I’ve been on some hoe ass shit lately

And I can’t stop and I know I should. I’ve had an abusive relationship for 10 years that I’m afraid to leave and I’ve been talking to a coworker that’s also in a relationship and we have been messing around and fuck idk what to do anymore cuz I can’t stop cuz now I have feelings for him and idk I’ve never done or thought of doing stuff like this ever...