Jealous

I’m an esthetician and currently at work right now. I just had a client who is being induced on Friday. This is her 5th baby. She even has identical twins. The whole time I could see the baby moving and kicking, it was magical. I can’t help but be furious and jealous of her. 5 baby’s? And a set of twins?! I can’t even conceive one baby. And the whole time she complained about not being able to get Botox or use retinol because you can’t whole pregnant or nursing. She acted like it was a burden. I wish I had that problem. Oh what I would do to have a little bundle of joy in my belly. I’m currently on my 4th cycle ttc, in the TWW currently. I know 4 times isn’t a long time but I’m 24 and husband 25 no none medical issues. I didn’t think it would take this long or be this hard. I want to be a mom, I want to make my husband a dad, I want to make our parents grandparents. I’m starting to think there is something wrong with me or him and that’s why we haven’t conceived yet. Oh god please give me 2 pink lines for Christmas. That’s all I want 🤞🏼😭