I can’t stop crying

I feel so sad all the time and I’m trying to push through my days and get through but my mind is pretty much not all here. I just want to lay in bed and sleep. I’m so physically and emotionally drained. All I keep thinking about what could have been, what they could’ve looked like or smiled like. What they’re name would be... this is my first loss after two healthy and happy pregnancies. I’m devastated.