I haven't officially been told the words.

I had an ultrasound three weeks ago. Doc seen a sac and teeny baby (rice grain, she said) but no heartbeat.

Two weeks ago. There was growth.. with the yolk sac. She seen no baby.

Last week.. nothing new.

I had one more ultrasound at the hospital. The results will be sent to my doctor.

I decided to log into my patient portal. I looked up the paperwork from the last three weeks. My doctor didn't tell me but she wrote that if there was no growth in a week, (which was last week) she would say it is a missed miscarriage. I guess she didn't want to say because my husband insisted on getting this last ultrasound. But it looks like I have suffered a missed miscarriage. I am sad but I don't think it is really going to hit until I am told the words.. I want to hear the words so I can start this process. I don't know what comes next. This is my third pregnancy, first miscarriage. If you don't mind, could you tell me what to expect? What comes next? I am scared. I'm never going to meet this baby and I am sad. It's been weeks.. I have had cramps here and there but they felt like normal pregnancy cramps...

How do I explain to my five year old...