I have so much anger and bitterness in me and it's NOT who i am. Actually I'm the complete opposite, I'll live everyday of my life preaching peace and love, as i do now. So why does the past still hold so much power over me? It fuels me i know that, so maybe I'm not done with my destiny. Maybe God doesn't want to take away my fuel.......or maybe it's just me who is holding on. This is the biggest question i need clarity on (obviously i know no one can answer for me) I wouldn't be where I'm at today of it wasn't for the heartbreak from family and friends that motivated me to take my own path and be independent. But I feel that I'm in a very good place spiritually, mentally, physically, every aspect. But yet sometimes throughout the day I'll just get hit with a heavy feeling in my heart and just all this rage that I used to once feel. 😭 Sometimes i question if this is just who i am....but i know God has bigger plans. I really try not to worry about the why, and I think I do a pretty good job at it, but sometimes it just gets to me. But even when I'm in those moments, I just remind myself that my faith in God is bigger than any pain or Hurt, and that with his love I CAN overcome.

It just gets hard sometimes :(