I'M SO CONFUSED!!!! Help me please😢

In my experience, a high school relationship is not worth your happiness, and it sounds like your boyfriend is manipulating you instead of trying to make you feel better, which is a terrible thing to do. If he's not actively trying to make you feel happy and comfortable in the relationship, he's not the one you should be with. As for the girl, if you think you like her maybe try to hang out with her more platonically, see if the feelings are really what you think they are. And if you're a senior you'll be off to college (I assume) anyway or are of legal age to support yourself, so I would wait until then to come out to your family if at all. Hope this helps!

I went through something very similar in highschool. My ex would rarely talk to me unless I went out of my way to talk to him, even after I confronted him he didn't change. At the time I also didn't understand that you didn't have to commit to a single gender, I go by my given name and pronouns but in all honesty I worried so much in highschool on what I was that I didn't focus on why it mattered. I'm happy with wearing dresses some days and binders on others. I also didn't know that pansexuality was a thing, and I didn't feel any sexual attraction to my ex. After so much anxiety trying to commit to a side I just stopped trying to identify between one or the other. If you're more comfortable being masculine that's great if you enjoy both that's ok too. Your boyfriend sounds like a jerk though in my experience leaving my ex was the best for me. I hope my experience may help you even just a little bit. Also if you are having trouble with a ftm appearance with your bust size I can help you out, I'm on the bustier side too and know the ins and outs of binding safely but still giving the desired look

As a random person on the internet who does not know you personally, I’d say my advice can’t help much. It’s very possible you’re queer in some way, but it’ll take time to tell. I’d say experiment with your style, presentation, and sexuality if you can. Expose yourself to tv shows, movies, books, youtubers, and other media that are part of that community. Try and make new friends if you’re able. And if you need someone to talk to, consider a therapist or counselor who specializes in LGBT+ and gender dysphoria.Good luck with everything!