Throwing the towel IN!!!

I need somewhere to rant because life is just shit rn!! I'm on the verge of losing my job BC of my period issues being so damn bad lately on top of getting sick I missed some work then got snowed in so missed a day then my cousin got hit by a drunk snowmobile driver and is in critical condition in the hospital and the family thinks my other cousin made a fake go fund me account to help them and now won't let us know anything about my cousin. For some reason my bf can't for the life of him find a fucking job so I been paying all the expenses of living and I'm so overwhelmed with life right now that my depression is really setting in !! I can't catch a fuckimg break and all I want to do is cry but can't seem to get the tears to come out .. I feel like god hates me ... I barley have friends BC all the friends I do have just wanna drink all the time but I'm to broke to even go have a drink .! Fuuuck ... 😭😭 I need support and I feel like I have nothing... I'm sorry I'm being self pity right now but I have no one to talk to...