Idk wtf to do

Lindsey • Married to my best friend👩🏽🧔🏻 🌈🤰🏽 Expecting our rainbow July 2020

I was a childcare worker/nanny for almost 10years when i recently moved on to a whole different career.. Well I’m now 8weeks pregnant and thinking for when baby is here and how i don’t think I’ll want to go back to work and put my baby in the care of someone else. I have no issues with trust, it’s the fact that i know i can provide the best care for my baby and i know it will be very hard for me to leave my baby.. I’ll want to be with them alllll the time. So I’m considering doing in home care where i take in a few kids along with my own child. BUT i recently quit and started a new career because i was feeling so burnt out with taking care of other people’s kids. Another big thing is the cost of childcare.. it’s SO expensive, for good reason.. but with what i currently make at my new job i would pretty much be working just to put my kid into the care of someone else with a LITTLE left over. My husband contributes as well and it’s not like we’d be fucked.. ugh i just don’t know what to do. I feel the obvious answer would be to have my in home care... but idk if I’ll regret it considering how burnt out i was feeling before. 🥴🥴 Any insight?? Anyone go through something similar?? Any advice welcomed!