I don’t feel like a good mom sometimes

I’m a FTM to a beautiful boy who’ll be a year old on New Year’s eve. He’s growing amazingly he had eight teeth by the time he was 6 months old, he’s beginning to walk now, he’s saying words and repeating what I say and do well. And he’s also starting to eat solids more and more often. But sometimes I can’t help but to feel like a bad mom. I know you’re supposed to read to your kids and not let them watch tv as much but He’s never liked for me to read to him he either takes the books and throws them on the floor, or he’ll crawl away and start playing with his toys. He much more prefers sing along songs/videos on YouTube and other more hands on play like stacking blocks, or learning how to make his little toy donuts spin. Or playing catch with his rattle ball. I see all these other babies his age and he they know their colors, they have much more toys that I can’t afford to get him right now. And I have other family members who’ll judge my parenting and tell me I should be doing this and he should be doing that by now because their kids did at his age. And it just makes me feel bad because it’s like a lot of the things they’re suggesting I either didn’t know about or have tried and my son didn’t respond well to it. It doesn’t mean I’m not tying it’s just what works for their kids isn’t working for mine. And also my sons VERY attached to me because I’m his primary caretaker he doesn’t really see other people that much because no one comes by to see him often nor do I have a car to take him to play dates or anything so all he really has is me. Idk I’m doing the best that I can but a lot of the times I just don’t feel good enough. Or that I can be doing a lot better. I feel my family and strangers silently judging me all the time and it’s sad because they all act like they had their shit together when they had their first kid and didn’t struggle with ANYTHING. Nd rather than helping they talk shit or tell me what they think I should and shouldn’t do. I’m not opposed to suggestions or advice but it’s HOW you give said advice & suggestions ya know? Anyone else been through this? How did you get over these feelings?