Jumping at the chance..

Just because I'm a SAHM does that mean I'm supposed to want to jump at every chance to leave my 6 month old?! People are surprised that I have not let anyone babysit our LO yet. Like I'm supposed to want to get away and not be with him just because I'm home with him all day. Dont get me wrong I have went to the store by myself and worked out alone and had a few dr appts that I left him for an hr or so, so I have left him but just not long periods of time. I also have a little separation anxiety from him and dont trust anyone with him. My mom and MIL will just do whatever they want and not follow routine or anything how I want things done so that just bothers me. My husband and I are planning a date night in Jan and will have a sitter for a few hours honestly up until this point too we been to busy for a date night or anything. I don't know just wanted to vent.