Am I Crazy to want this?

The week before Thanksgiving I did a test and I was pregnant! Weren’t trying. I am 45yrs old. Fiancé and I talked and felt and both agreed that we would love this baby God have us. Sunday after Thanksgiving, I miscarried at just 2 months. It was a rough roller coaster ride.

Here’s the crazy part, we both say........if it happens then we will be having a baby. I honestly want to want this so bad but my rational brain says there is no way you will naturally Get pregnant again at 45yrs old.

I feel Crazy to want this but I really do. We both do. Will I loose my mind d or feel like I can’t go in if it doesn’t happen? No but I do want this.

Just feel like I’m being foolish for even thinking about this being a possibility at my age.

Thoughts?