Hey Ladies,

Please help me out..

So, I’m currently 17 weeks pregnant, but it has been so tough.

This is my first pregnancy and I can’t help but feel like I’ve let me entire life down.

I work in a very fast paced, hard working environment.

I do night shift, 7PM until any time. No set finish time.

I run the department at night.

It’s heavy lifting and constant walking.

You could be living up to 25kgs at a time, take in too consideration that’s over half my body weight as I’m very petite and small.

My job has become very hard for me, my first trimester I was constantly sick, I never felt well. I can handle feeling unwell at work but this was just another level, so I didn’t work for awhile.

Then, I got to my second trimester and it’s gotten worse.

I’m having days were I feel so Ill that I can’t function, migraines, sciatica pain to the point were I need help to the toilet and to get in and out of bed.

I’m exhausted, I can barely function enough to do my own daily tasks.

Hefty cramps in my stomach

Nose bleeds

Heartburn to the point I can’t eat

I could give you a whole list

My mental health has dropped to the point where I am thinking about suicide every day and my anxiety is through the roof.

My hours got lowered so I could finish at 12Pm every night, but my body just couldn’t do it anymore.

A few people on my team have made it very clear that they think I’m being stupid and keep airing their frustrations with everyone else attempting to sabotage my reputation, I’ve tried my best to help them and make it easier for them when I go on leave but they still aren’t supportive at all.

They just moan and be cruel about me when I’m not around and then are nice too my face..

It sucks.. one person that’s doing this was wanting to adopt my baby and is now treating my like I’m a piece of shit?

I feel like everything has fallen apart..

my job is very accommodating and supportive towards me and has told me to stop heavy lifting and doing certain stuff at work which I’ve done and then my team members shit on me for it.. it’s gotten too a point where I’m getting too stressed, I can barely function and can’t do my job anymore.. what do i do and has anyone else been in this situation?

I have tried to tough it out and push myself but all that’s happened is I’m getting Ill and am unable to do my job even more...

Am I just being a baby?..