I don’t know if I’m back in the throes of PPA or not, I had it last time and I feel mostly okay but I’m starting to panic over some things.

Can someone talk me off the ledge about SIDS?

I can’t even walk away from the baby for a moment without freaking out. I just want to do laundry or go to the bathroom while he naps and I just can’t. I’ve convinced myself he’s going to stop breathing if someone isn’t right up on him.

Never mind sleeping restfully through the night. We have him sidecar to the bed and I still poke at him randomly to see him move, or jump awake at every noise he makes when I do fall asleep.

I’m in the process of finding a new therapist but I can’t currently go back on my anxiety meds because they conflict with the BP medication I’m still on a bit longer. So I’m just over here suffering hard.