I screamed at my 1 month old. Horrible I know. But while his dad slept I stayed awake practically all night. I then had to drive him to work and my mom.

My family doesn't help with him at all. My siblings see me sobbing and yelling at him, but don't think " let me grab him, and let you sleep"

They don't care about me and him. My boyfriend's family does.

My mom if she wasn't working, she would have grabbed him. He just eats and eats, and it's frustrating... He cries and cries and I feel like I can't give him what he wants and needs. I'm so exhausted. So so extremely exhausted and I'm having a breakdown.

I know you'll all think I'm a shitty mom for yelling at him, but I'm so broken right now.

I just want to move far away from this "family"

I love how my boyfriend's family cares about me. They include me in everything.

I know my son hates me....

I know I don't deserve to be his mom.

I know I'm rambling.