When i was pregnant with my son last year(he was born dec 11th 2018) at 15 weeks i was diagnosed with perivia placenta, and placed on bed rest until 28 weeks when it had fixed itself.

I became so depressed once i was on bed rest- my therapist had explained that postpatrum depression during pregnancy is called post parripartum-it happens at ANY stage of pregnancy. I didnt have medication until 3 weeks post partum- i stopped eating- cried day in and day out- never slept barely showered especially once i hit two weeks i showered maybe once a week. Luckily my husband was at home for the first month of our sons life of i wouldnt have taken care of him like i should have.

After i had gotten medication at 3 week pp it made everything hazy but i showered everyday-began to eat- i actually took care of my son even looked forwards to changing his dirty diapers- i was happier.

Fast forward to today, im 20 weeks pregnant with a little girl- ive felt depressed since i was 8 weeks along but its recently gotten worse.

Im down to showering once a week, i cry myself to sleep, i barely eat and if i do my stress and depression make me throw it up. My son is changed and fed constantly but i havent even given him a bath yet or even cleaned up our house. Dishes are dirty in the sink, clothes scattered everywhere, trash piled high in a bag. Its not gross but messy- im just to the point of giving up and calling it quits.

My stress comes from being recently laid off from work- that income plus my husbands made our lives a bit easier on us. Ive put in for 10 different places, restaurants, gas stations, stores, warehouses, ect and NOBODY is willing to hire me. I fear by the time i do have a job ill be turned down simply because ill be a few weeks from birth... It may seem my problems are small but theyre so big to me, my stress adds onto my depression i know that much but i cant control it.

Ive reached out to my doctor and he feels uncomfortable giving me medicine, he said hes more than happy to start right after birth.