December 21 was the hardest day of my life. I hit 20 weeks exactly the day before and was happy and celebrating. I thought I was having Braxton Hicks and in reality it was actual labor pains. At 20 weeks our son Miles was born and we lost him that night. He was born and he was alive then he passed. I've been looking for the right group as he was not a miscarriage or a still born. He was alive. I'm hoping I have other moms that I can share my grief with. This is one of the hardest things I've ever dealt with. Once my body heals I would like to try again. I pray that someday I'll have my child.