Last year shortly after Christmas, I found out I was pregnant and I would have had a newborn September 2019. Sadly, that ended in a MMC and then I got pregnant August 2019 and this one again ended in a MMC in October which I’m still struggling with trying to get over. I’m waiting for my HCG to go down to zero. It’s so frustrating that I want to try again and also get tested at the same time. It’s been almost two months already and on December 9th my hcg was still hanging around at 14. My doctor told me to just redraw another hcg next year 2020 which I think is reasonable cuz I’m tired of getting poked to find out my hcg is still lingering in my system. I want to get tested but I also don’t care if I am pregnant as well. Honestly, a positive pregnancy test would be a nice present to end the year but then again I’m also thinking what if I end up having a MC again? I just took a cheapie one and I think it still had a vvfl which I think is probably still my previous MMC that’s still in my system. I never tracked my ovulation this month at all...