But I’m sitting on my front porch right now deciding if I deserve more. We have 2 kids and so laid them down after a long Christmas Day. The family finally left and I go sit next to my husband by the fire. He said he wanted to ride the 4 wheeler to his buddy’s house and then ride back. I was just like well can he just come here and we can sit by the fire for a few and just relax. He then said well we kind of made plans to do this a few min ago. I’m like well he is gonna be here for a few hours anyway can’t I just have 20 min of your time? He got mad saying I was guilt tripping him. That wasn’t my intention but why does he have to ride over there so bad to just ride back. He wanted to smoke some weed but they could just do that here anyway. Basically riding his 4 Wheeler to his buddy’s was more important to him than me asking 20 min of his time. It’s not just this it’s like all little things like this. Like I don’t feel appreciated or valued. I feel like I’m not put about his friends. I’m just here waiting like an idiot because I just want him to understand why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling. It’s annoying and just sucks.