Let me just start by saying I love my husband. There’s no doubt about that.

But I feel myself growing increasingly bitter toward him since having our baby. I swear he acts like nothing changed and still does all the same things he did before the baby. Yes, he works. And he’s a hard worker. But when he’s home, he likes to watch TV, play ps4, etc. He’s taken hunting trips with his friends. He’s gone out to the bar even though I’ve told him I’m not ok some nights. I’ve asked him countless times to help me more and he will, but after a day or two, go back to doing his own thing. He loves our baby but I take care of all the responsibilities and I’m exhausted. I’m back to work full time as well and I’m EBF, so literally everything falls on me. Plus I have one of the babies who wakes every 1.5-2 hours at night still. He’ll take her for a half hour or so for me to shower, but then he’ll get “hot” or bored and give the baby back to me.

This week he started bringing up the idea of having another baby. I told him we need to wait because I’m not totally healed and frankly, I can’t raise 3 kids alone (we have a 4 year old.)

He also makes little comments about how he wants to sleep in (which he already does!) Comments about how I should have dinner made. Comments about the housework. I’m growing to really despise this. They feel like little daggers at me.