I dont understand what I ever did so wrong to deserve the amount of child loss I have and am currently going through. Everyone says everything happens for a reason, so can someone please tell me why I was given a beautiful Down syndrom boy 12 years ago to have him just taken away 4 months later? Or maybe why I was blessed with 3 more children almost 6 years ago through adoption (due to my husbands parents not taking care of them, as they are his siblings) then 1 moves out with guy after guy, 1 leaves to stay with another family member because he doesnt want to do anything with his life (meaning he wants to do nothing but play video games and fail at school) and 1 after doing the best with us and getting all her little ducks in a perfect row takes her life all of a sudden right before graduating (two months ago)? Which brings us to now....magically after 3 years of trying to have 1 more child of our own we finally get pregnant! (Which I fully believe was due to our angel who took her life) Only to just find out today at 7 wks our baby has stopped growing and is no longer viable. How do I even take another loss? An the biggest question of all...why do we have to? 😭💔