I really am not a good person

My in laws and I do not have a good relationship. I’ve tried, I really have but we just aren’t compatible, if that makes sense.

My husbands uncle died yesterday of natural causes so now we have to go see his parents this weekend and I really don’t want to go 😩

His parents are so mean to me and their house smells and it sticks on you. I can feel myself making this about me and i know it’s important for my husband to go be with his family but fuckkkk