Really just depressed

My husband and I have two beautiful boys. So

I feel bad being so devastated about this considering we have two blessings. We were pregnant with our third, miscarried in June on Father’s Day. It broke me. I have been incredibly depressed. Gained all the weight I had lost after my second son was born plus some. Well, I had been hoping that this was the month. I

Had this feeling. But I’m 2 days until my period is due and I can feel it coming on. It’s like every time I start to do better, something happens and I am just dragged right back down into bad depression. Just needed a platform to vent where people might understand.