Another disappointing month

I simply can’t handle this any more. After a chemical and having to watch others around me have kids and rub it in ur face- nope not exaggerating - I’m beyond heart broken. I just wanna curl up and pretend I’m not feeling like this any more and wake up and poof just be pregnant and this all be over. And next month my hubby is away during ovulation so there’s that... I’m done ... I’m heartbroken. It hurts too much.