Growing up I was never a very touchy feely person, I actually flinch when people move too suddenly around me because I dont want them touching me, this is something I've always done subconsciously. I've had people ask if I'm okay and question if something happened to me when I was younger or if my parents used to hit me because I flinch away so often and am very physically distant but the answer is no. Well, kinda. Nothing happened to me at home as a kid but in the sixth grade I was physically sexually assaulted and then in the seventh grade I was sexually assaulted again. So yeah, something happened to me, but the flinching and physical distance started way before that. It has slowly progressed over the years to where I get either a feeling of deep disgust or extreme panic when someone touches me and I dont know why. I can tolerate light touching from my family and from my bestfriend but anyone else I would rather eat glass then have them touch me. It sucks because even though I do this and feel this way I dont want to. I want to hold my significant others hand, I want to pal around with people, I want to use a bus without cramming myself into the inside seat in the far back. This feeling plus my anxiety which acts up in public really doesnt help so what do I do? How do I get over this?