Having Lupus

The worse thing you can ever have. The pain the crying. I seriously don't wish this on anybody. Not including endometriosis and Raynaud's Disease. All together the pain sucks monkey holes. I wished that I never got any of these. My hubby is always here when im in pain buy he doesn't realize how much it hurts. He sees it he always rubs my hands arms neck everything. It just hurts. We are trying for our miracle baby but I just think that I want to wait now a little longer. Uggggg go away pain forever please.