So depressed

My husband is emotionally abusive... (no I can’t leave, not now anyways). We both work full time, never travel and if we do he pretty much ruins it. He doesn’t like spending time with anyone and I can’t even take any classes or have hobbies because my work schedule is all over the place. My only happiness comes from books and my phone when I watch YouTube or funny instagram memes. Sounds childish but what do I do?.... any other way I can get out of this mental state?....