Me and my baby daddy have serious problems and I’ll get fed up and leave and he convinces me to come back and that he will change and I give in because I really do love him and I know things could be different but ultimately he always goes back to the same behavior and I just question myself like why do I bother coming back because it gets harder to leave every time I know his behavior is so beyond unacceptable and it hurts so much that he can see me crying because of his actions and he just lies and says he’s sorry and he’s trying to be a better man. He always just ends up reverting back to the same behavior. Like I know I deserve better than this and I just wish he would be the one to give it to me but even while writing this I know it’s not going to happen. I know I need to leave I guess I’m just scared. Idk what I’m even scared of tbh he’s broken my heart so many times I really don’t think leaving is gonna be anymore painful. This just wasn’t how my plan for my family was supposed to go I’m just so disappointed. I was really ride or die for him like when he was at his lowest and had no one I was there for him I have always done everything in my power to make him happy. I know none of this is my fault I know it’s him but I just don’t understand how he could take me for granted after everything like I gave him so many fucking chances and he just blows it every time. I feel stupid every lie he tells me I choose to believe because I don’t want to admit that he would really do me like that again but deep down I know the truth