I love him. I really do

But the endless inappropriate relationships he’s had with other women during our dating life and then our marriage has ruined my opinion of him

Though he may never have had sex with someone else (that I know of)

He has tried to

Multiple times.

And I didn’t find out until it was too late. Snooping through his phone gave me all the info I needed. And I contacted the women so I had solid proof. And when he finally admitted to it, and claimed to be sorry, I believed him.

And now he’s done everything possible to prove his loyalty and I think it’s too late. But I guess he really hasn’t changed to prove his loyalty for the following reasons:

Now, I’m disgusted by his porn habits. Just another way for him to get off to other women than his wife. I’m disgusted by him. I literally feel sick thinking about how he cums while he looks at other naked women. I tried to explain how his infidelity affected my views on porn and why I’m no longer okay with it and he basically told me “I’m a man, all men watch porn. Too bad”

And now I can’t help but see the way he looks at other women when we’re in public. If a woman with a big ass is anywhere near us all I have to do is glance at him to see him basically breaking his neck to stare. It’s disrespectful and it makes me fucking hate him. He’s a pig. My husband is a pig.

Even the way he demands I dress modestly and doesn’t want me to wear leggings or anything tight or revealing. It’s like he wants me to be a fucking nun so men won’t look at me, meanwhile he shamelessly gawks at women in public. And looks up “phat ass white girls” for porn. It’s just disgusting.