Breaks my heart thinking he could be lying to me.

After 6 years of being clean back in late '18 he relapsed. He swore up and down he was quiting this past November. Everything seemed fine after. He quit cold turkey.

In the last few days i started noticing a change in his behavior he's easily rilled up. Gets mad and distant.

Today at 3am i woke up to him looking at me from OUTSIDE our window. He claims he locked his car keys in our house.. weird right

That same morning i couldn't help but think about it, it stuck with me all day.

I asked him in joking manner when he came home from work to see his reaction he said no. So i dropped it.

SAME DAY I had to pick up my antibiotics from the pharmacy that happened to be located next to a donut shop he asked me to get him a donut and as we drove off he Flipped out about the type of donut not being what he wanted.

I don't know what to do. I have 2 toddlers aged 1 and 2. His drug problem caused us to lose our last apartment and put us in a financial hole. Basically living paycheck to paycheck.

I met this man at church. He was studying to become a pastor. I didn't sign up for this life. I don't know what to do. I know i need to leave. But I don't have solid evidence that he relapsed. I don't want to jump the gun. But my gut is telling me otherwise. It breaks my heart in every way possible. I hate to give up on my marriage. But my children are all that matter. It's not fair to them.