So I had a miscarriage on December 13th at 9 weeks. My husband and I both agreed to try again and that’s what I want more than anything, but last night I had a breakdown and I’m afraid my husband will see that as not being able to handle trying again. I also lost my grandpa on December 28th and I haven’t had time to fully grieve. It seems like my husband moved on so quickly, but I haven’t. I told him I was mad at him for being able to move on and I felt my emotions were so all over the place. I also have PTSD and anxiety disorder and have worked so hard to keep myself in check and I hadn’t taken my Xanax since October when I found out I was pregnant and took it last night to try and help me. I thought I only took a half of one, but I took a whole one and I know I scared him because it took effect pretty quickly since I didn’t have a tolerance for it any more. I fell asleep in mid “argument” I apologized for that this morning but he hasn’t talked to me since. I see a therapist pretty regularly but she has been out for 6 weeks due to surgery. I see her today.