Feeling very ugly or 🔥 😳

Im 23 and I remember since 12 i started feeling very ugly or very pretty some days. I still feel the same. some days i see my self and feel disgusted of my face and the other days i feel im one of the most beautiful women on earth. When i was a baby/child i had extra attention of strangers they called me very beautiful specially my eyes and wanted to take pictures of me. These attention got faded away as puberty hit i even got bullied in school for looking ugly/weird. Now that i am older I can’t decide if im ugly or pretty. It affects my confidence 😔i need help 😢