Let me just say;

Being a rainbow mom is hard.

No one wants to be a rainbow mom, no one wants to dress their newborn baby in rainbows to quote “after every storm there will be a rainbow”

Yes you see it skyrocketing right now on Pinterest, Facebook, anywhere you look but let me say it’s not something people wish for or hope for.

People who see a Rainbow mom and are not one look at it as a blessing (which in a way it is), they are excited for you and happy for your newly announced pregnancy! But, from one rainbow mom to another that’s not all we see.

We see a loss. To have a rainbow baby you have to lose one first.

We know how old our baby would be.

We celebrate their due date.

We see other moms who were due around the same time and wonder how our baby would be.

We cry randomly.

We sit here and wonder what pregnancy would be like with that baby.

We get excited every time we feel this new baby kick, but at the same time wish it was the baby we lost.

We name that baby, rather we ever saw a heart beat or not.

We wonder the gender if we never knew.

We wonder WHO that baby would have been.

We get excited to see every sono, but there’s always something in your mind that their heartbeat won’t be there any more or something is wrong.

We are literally celebrating and getting ready for a new life all because our other baby didn’t make it.

That’s hard.

That’s heart breaking.

That’s confusing.

Of course we are overjoyed and excited for this little blessing, and it’s something we wished, hoped, and prayed SO hard for, but I promise it’s not something we wanted.

So yes, celebrate with us. Tell us how excited you are for us. But remember to be a rainbow mom, we lost one. Remember that. Not every mom talks about loss, but to some when people bring up that little bundle it lights up our world 💕

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Not my words