My husband and I have been ttc for almost two years. We do not have a kid together but he has three for his previous marriage and I have two from mine. We have 4 kids in our house 2 his and my two. His kids stress me out so much with all the disrespect and we finally have all kids in school and out of diapers. I have been a stay at home mom for almost 7 years. I feel that I could finally work again and contribute more to the family. I want to work I miss working. I help

contribute now by babysitting from home but I want me time, away from kids. I think it would help me keep my sanity. But what my husband doesnt know is that I have secretly been taking my birth control pills.

I feel so bad for hiding it from him because he wants another baby and at one point I did too. I just know that if we have another baby the best option is for me to stay home until that child starts school too and I don’t want that. Am I wrong for keep it from him? I know the pill is not 100% effective so it could still happen but I would eventually like to get my tubes tied.