My husband is emotionally abusive. Only recently have I realized this I always thought I was doing something wrong. I do everything he wants, i say ok to everything he says, when he yells at me I stay quiet. I walk on eggshells because I never know when he’ll explode and make me feel stupid (mind you I have a doctorate degree and while that doesn’t mean everything it does mean I’m not a total bum). Anyways he has always (since day 1) kept me hanging even after every date I never knew if I would see him again but being naive I married him anyway. It’s gotten worse and worse to the point of me having soooo much anxiety everyday because I never know when he’ll end it. I get soo scared when I hear the garage door or when he wakes up because I’m always expecting him to say it’s over. I keep hoping for another little show of affection from him. I don’t have the mental strength or courage to walk away now but I also can’t take this anxiety. Any tips on how to enjoy my life as I wait to see what happens?

I know the right answer is walk away but I literally can not. Idk why I just can’t. How do I make it through a work day not knowing if my world will turn upside down in a few hours? How do I eat how do I do anything?? 😖