So it's about 10 pm now .. I am being induced at 4am and I can't sleep. I'm home in bed next to my 2 y.o. who has never slept a night apart from me and feeling all the guilt that I felt when I had to leave his sister the same way.. I had never left her side for more than a few hours , and I had to leave her at 18 months old to have my now 2 y.o son. Both were breastfeeding till 2. Had to wean them only due to the pregnancies and milk loss from that. I have 4 children currently, all were induced. Ages 12, 11, 3, and 2. All girls but my 2 y.o. and the newest is also a girl. I've done this before but I still feel so nervous. My anxiety is acting up like crazy right now. I'm going to try to go take a bath and relax a bit before I let my mind wander too much. I'm full term and labor just isn't kicking in as quickly as it should on its own. I was 1 cm on Thursday, no idea where I'm at yet, I'll see once I get to the hospital tonight... Wish me luck🤰🏽 last few hours of being pregnant.